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one day

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I will finish my last day of residency. I value my friends greatly so I will probably practice somewhere on the east coast–where I suspect many will still be. Some of my friends will have been at work for quite a few years already. I hope many of them will be nearby.

I am not a kid anymore. I am hardly a student anymore. I am a scholar; a scholar of a profession–the profession of healing. I am also a thinker–a ponderer of things society denounces as “abstract:” Existence, mortality, eternity.

I have, no we have… awoken to find ourselves on a world at particular point in eternity to experience what amounts to less than a glance at infinity–and one day all too soon, we will return to infinity’s embrace.

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August 31, 2010 at 7:25 pm

freestyle session

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Hit up the undergrad bboy club here. Had a session. It was something else. It didn’t just remind me of old times. It was old times. It was an anachronism. Life is different now… but in that cypher, it’s as though I never grew up.

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August 25, 2010 at 7:03 pm

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uprooted

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Those were the days. So much time to spend with people I cared about and loved. It was a wonderful soap bubble. I grew and I suppose I have outgrown it, but really, I would not mind if I lived in a community like that for the rest of my life. That really is what makes undergrad so amazing: Community. Family. I suppose I will find a family here in medical school eventually. For now, though, I am not terribly content. I miss my family.

To make things harder, in medical school, there is little time to develop new relationships.  Well, understanding my situation helps.  Life is still incredible.  Ups and downs and come what may.  Existence is a blessing in itself.

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August 23, 2010 at 5:34 pm

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friday night grind

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This is certainly fueled by the initial excitement about being in medical school, but right now, I am exactly where I want to be: Sitting at a large sturdy table in an unpopulated section of the Health Sciences Library–working towards that which I feel, most profoundly, to be meaningful. For now, I feel with the greatest certainty that medical school is the right path. As my past blogs have shown, I do a great deal of meditating–on my days, on things existential, on emotion, on humanity, and on death. With a mind so inclined to such thoughts, what other profession could I have been than that of healer? Well, perhaps a philosopher, but people are too important to my self for that to be of any fulfillment. So… a healer. A mender of hearts, literally, and of souls, hopefully.

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August 20, 2010 at 7:10 pm

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first two weeks

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These first weeks of medical school have been incredible.  On receiving my white coat:  Adding so much ceremony to getting a white coat can be misleading.  This ceremony emphasizes the symbolism of the white coat.  The most obvious and typically appreciated symbol, of course, is power.  However, for the greater physician, the white coat is not a symbol of power, but rather of responsibility.  The white coat has its roots in the scientific background of the physician–it is, most accurately, a white lab coat.  But the physician dons this coat seeking not protection from chemical splashes and flame, but the application of its science to humanity.  The science that can spread contagion, chemical, and misery; the science that renews hearts, bodies, and lives.  Such is the responsibility of the white coat–the application of something so potent and raw as science to something so delicate and precious as life.

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August 20, 2010 at 5:02 pm

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my friends

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I will keep in touch with them through this gauntlet.

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August 17, 2010 at 5:35 pm

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Morning Star

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by: Lina (Shelina Wade)

I don’t buy albums too frequently, but I got this one. “Morning Star” blends some very old flavors with modern production capabilities; the style is fun, soulful, and genuine; add Lina’s incredible voice for a beautiful, smooth, and eclectic album.

Official About: Singer/Songwriter, Lina, boldly discards all artistic blueprints, with a musical fusion thriving on rich, jazz-era orchestration complemented by R&B. With a writing and singing background that spans the genres of soul, jazz, opera, hip hop, pop, and country, LINA is an original, bringing a fresh, arresting sound that is passionate, organic and timeless. In effect, a one woman Harlem Renaissance, reclaiming decades worth of musical heritage for a new generation.

With Grammy nominations that cross multiple music categories, Lina is a stunning beauty compared to the likes of Josephine Baker and Sade. She is a musician’s musician, who sings in eight languages, and writes all her own songs. Her delivery is sometimes reminiscent of jazz great Billie Holiday, with an artsy, funky style like Erykah Badu–but she’s an original. Her sound is fresh and for anyone who is thirsting for soul stirring, life changing music.

“With so much technology, there are a lot of producer-driven artists. The result is that tracks have become the meat versus the lyrics–and it’s become more about manufacturing mass-produced recordings. It can be difficult to be original, but I’ve always put passion into my writing and performing. I just let the music that’s inside of me flow out.” -Lina

Take a listen.

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August 3, 2010 at 8:57 pm

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